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Posts from the “#thoughts” Category

member of society…

Posted on October 5, 2018

a student of mine asked me to fix her phone screen, but the mission was a complete and utter failure. it would turn on, but the screen stayed black. i suggested she take the phone to the store because it was still under warranty. a couple of days later, i asked her what the status of her phone was. “i’m so sad,” she said, streaking her finger down her face, simulating a tear drop. “my said she would take me on the weekend.” i tried to put a silver lining on the situation. “but don’t you feel good not being tethered to it? you’re free!” though i’d be hard pressed to ever give up my smartphone completely, there have been times when i didn’t…

we started a league…

Posted on October 3, 2018

about two years ago, i got back magic: the gathering. i stopped sometime in high school around the time the fallen empires set was released — some 20 years or more ago. my friends and i would save up our quarters and make weekend trips to buy packs. i never pulled a shivan dragon or a vesuvan doppelganger. and i regret trading away all of my dual-lands. whatever i didn’t trade away, i sold off when i quit. if only i had just held onto them — some of those cards might be in a few of my commander decks today. ever since i got back into magic, i’ve been thinking about starting a magic club at school. sometime last year, a student walked…

zeroes…

Posted on September 27, 2018

it’s hard being a teacher. quitting is a constant and persistent thought in my mind. when i wake up, when i’m driving to school, when i pull out the keys to my classroom out of my pocket — i am in a  state of distress. because teaching is hard and goes against every physical instinct i have. i’m an introvert who doesn’t like public speaking or big crowds of people. i’m completely insecure, awkward, and i tend to say things that will likely be used against me if ever i were to run for public office. it’s why i fill my off-hours with chores and mind-consuming hobbies that take me away from uncomfortable social settings. i have a solid group of friends i stick…

we are all victims here…

Posted on August 18, 2018

“you finally brought it!” i said, as joseph pulled out something from his backpack. earlier in the week, he challenged me to a game of mario tennis. he plopped the nintendo switch on my desk and stretched his neck combatively. two other students walked over to see what was going on. i reached down and grabbed my backpack.  “let’s play!” joseph shouted as i handed my console to marcos.  “can’t,” i said, swiveling my chair back towards my computer screen. the class had just finished an exam, and i had grades to input. “you guys can play,” i told him. the computer science course’s first project is programming a video game, so it seemed appropriate. at the least, they weren’t playing fortnite. after a few…

goodbye…

Posted on June 6, 2018

i had to step outside of class for a brief moment after the bell rang and walked through a group of my students sitting outside and eating their brunch — i don’t allow food in the computer lab now that the new desktops have been received and installed. one of the students i didn’t recognize, but it’s the end of the year and i didn’t need to know whose class the student was missing, why they were out, or whether they even had permission. things get so lax after grades are turned in and right before the seniors disappear from campus and go into the stadium to practice walking for graduation. with a glance, i counted five. they stood around a tight circle near…